Category: mumbai


>I LOVE YOU SHAI!!!


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“To forgive is vanity, To avenge is show off, To stop caring about either, is true salvation.”

 Don’t ask me… I did NOT sit down to write this. I was expecting myself to write about something that can be of a better use to me when i read these pages someday. Really, it has been ages since I read and remembered how this blog started, why it started. I never actually did care if anyone reads my scribblings. Okay, I did. But not that much as I expected myself to. I am confusing myself now. The whole point of Blogging is to share your thoughts with the online world, right. Or maybe I do not care enough if I get read or not. PR-2, not bad for an occasional writer. Anyways, I wonder when I would ever start writing poems again. May be I need inspiration. Perhaps I should travel, or get interested in something I can think about. May be photography. Wonder when I would save enough to get my SLR. When I started planning, twas a dSLR 3000. Now its 3100. Wonder if ever.

Naah… I will. Even if it comes down to 4900 :p

PS:- Loved Dhobi Ghat. Love you Kiran Rao for making the movie. Aamir, you were mediocre, but so you were supposed to be given the role you had wasn’t much important for the movie. Prateik’s acting was very natural and LOVED SHAI…. well… I should say I almost fell for you :p


>Its time.

Goodbye Mumbai. Love ya. 😦

Will miss ya a lot.

😦

>Prey


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Well…a poem finally…a dark one this time…dunno how much justice i have done with my dark instincts…You’re the judge

There he spotted her, the prey of the evening,
laughing among her friends, her aura lightening the dark night,
He watches her moves, the ways she speaks,
he plans for the act, the one which always rules,

He moves towards her, with an innocent smile on his face,
beneath which lies a cruel intention, of which no one can find a trace,
He takes silent steps, the prey completely ignorant of it,
his eyes mocking the atmosphere, like a snake’s slit,

She’s talking to him, amazed by his charm,never suspecting the reality,
He stands by her side, holding a beer, cruel face hidden by frailty,
“What is this man,where he came from”, she wonders in her mind,
His charm and wits, working their way, making her logics blind,

He prepares to leave,she follows him out, fallen for him all the way,
never thinking it might be a trap,that she might be just a prey,
The streets are dark,the lights are out,they are all alone in the night,
As he moves towards her,preparing for the kill, ready to strike with all might.

>Back to the future


>I am back on the track. Took my time but now its working fine, my useless brain.. lol… Something exciting coming up…from early morning pics to experiences of a new kind… And as usual..girls 😀


>I know I have to be mad to be writing this post…almost same as my earlier post… Pardon me if it seems boring sort of to u people….This time it is PERSONAL…

I love you…I love you and that includes all the fights I have had with you, all the things we have enjoyed together, all the things we have discussed over and all the things we have argued on…It includes every damn phone call to you at the cost of my dinner meal…It includes every damn risk you have taken talking to me despite your issues…it includes all the verbal abuses I’ve thrown at you…It includes all the things you have said to me and made me suffer about… It includes every smile you have given me…every touch I felt of you on my skin…Every night I thought of you and cried to realise you are not gonna be with me…every lie i told you only to tell you the truth 10 minutes later… every thing I have done for you and never told you that I did it….

I love you…and yes..I am still crazy for you… come to me and tell me you do not feel the same way I do…tell me if u can…else I am going to delete this blog within 1 month… with no more sane posts…yes..u got me right…and with will end all of my online presence…not to forget that I do not have an offline one… 🙂

P.S. :- I love you sweetheart


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I was walking alone, on the wet sand,
you said you wanted to hold my hand,
You said you wanted to be with me,
No matter whatever the situation be,

You said you will always be by my side,
and that you have nothing to hide,
You took me from me, you took my spirit,
You changed me into what I see in mirror but don’t know

You told this was special, that we were so meant to be,
And I just smiled, happy and joyous and free,
You made me fly, made me laugh, I ask now “WHY?”,
When all that you wanted to do was to make me cry?

You decided all, when to come, when to go, when to leave me alone,
Never thought of me, as if I was nothing, lifeless like a stone,
You left me stranded on crossroads, without telling which way to go,
“What do I do now?”..I won’t ask YOU! Though even I don’t know!


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“I want to buy something for you”,she said. “Why? I don’t need anything”, he said smiling, knowing that its useless to try to convince her once she has made up her mind. She was always this fragile, cute, lovely but at times a very very strong willed girl. He thought,”Perhaps I love the way she defies me….”

They were in love.

“Look at this!!! It’s so sweet. Your sister will like this…I know..she will”, her voice grabbed his attention. But he wasn’t listening anything. He was just listening her voice, not what she said. He looked at her face, so innocent, so fresh and as always, full of love. “Hello!! Where are you mister??? “, and he came back from his hypnotized state. “hmmm?? Did you say something??”,he asked. He could hear only a giggle back and felt a pat on his head… “pagal ho bilkul tum”

“No way…. you aren’t buying me this!! I do not like it…its..its so.. GIRLISH…!!! no way…”. Her face lost all color at his remarks… How she wanted him to have this as a symbol of their relationship!! And this idiot is thinking about his position and all!!Huh!!

“Okay, so tell me finally. Are you letting me gift you this or not?”, she said. “Why, do you think I will allow you do that to me?”, he hit back. “Obviously, I’ll do whatever I want to do with you!”, she said with a mischief in her eyes. He was standing there, shocked. Never before she has been so open with him in person. It took him a moment to regain his composure. “Huh…And what if I do not let you ?”. They were enjoying this for sure, no matter if for the first time.

“It’s very simple,I’ll hit you! I’ll slap you!”, ending the sentence, she slapped him gently on his left cheek. “This is getting too much, I must have a control on myself”, he thought. “Oh! You slapped me you dirty….”, he stopped in the middle of his sentence. She was looking at him as if she was expecting him to open up and wanted him to say what he was saying. He didn’t say a word.

“So you slapped me. I’ll take my revenge and slap you too.”, saying this he moved towards her. No one was in their lane, and it was almost empty, for it was almost 9 pm on a cold evening of December. He stopped at a finger’s distance, realizing he wasn’t going to hit her. She closed her eyes as he lifted his hand. He was looking at her face. Everything else became meaningless in that one moment. He could die happily and have no wishes left in his heart that moment. He looked at her lips. He wanted to kiss them. Perhaps she also wanted him to kiss them. He rested his hand on her cheek and caressed it. He touched his lips with his fingers and suddenly moved away.

She was still standing there with her eyes closed. He went on to sit on a chair and said,” I think its getting late. You should go to your PG now. I also have a bus to catch.” She opened her eyes. He thought he saw some moistness there, but looked away from her. She said,”I’ll drop you to the bus stand else you will get lost”

They didn’t speak another word for next one hour in the taxi.

“Bus stand aa gaya?”
“Haan”
“Ok”
“ok”

“bye”
he didn’t reply to her bye. He just kept looking towards her. Then it happened. She took the clip out of her hair and let them free. He kept looking at her. He wished he had kissed her back in the shop. She just smiled at him, as if to say “It’s ok Navi, I understand”

He turned back and walked towards his bus,into the darkness.


>Well…

It begins now.

I am BACK.

No apologies for the inconveniences to come in future.

>:|


>It has been 9 years since I have been away from home, and am able to visit it only in vacations, small-extended holidays….etc… Never before I have had this feeling of attachment towards my home. I am not a homesick type of person. I am the one who accepts whatever comes his way. But today I do not want to return to Mumbai, though I love that city a lot. It has taught me a lot and given me a lot. Even then I want to stay here with my family now.

Is this what they call growing up?

Am I matured now?

I do not know.
: | ….

>Vacations Over


>…. : This is how I am feeling today…. Have you ever wondered why good times pass by so quickly while the bad ones seem to be here for ages? Same is the case with me. 2 weeks have passed so quickly. And now its time to be back to mumbai. I should be happy. I love that city. i am not “that” happy. I was just begining to enjoy my stay at home.

😦 I will sure miss my home this time. A rare occasion for me.

Anyways. See you all in Mumbai now….. If that’s the way it has has to be, so be it!

BTW…. I have hundreds of pics, thousands of jokes and uinnumerable experiences to share this time. Had quite a “moving” (literally) vacation this time. Travelled a lot and spent 5 consecutive nights at 5 different places, each atleast 300 Kms away from other….lol….

>:) Last day in Mumbai….


>Well…. I’d be leaving Mumbai today….lol…not what you are thinking… Its only temporary…. I will OBVIOUSLY return back….this is the city of my dreams…both broken and fulfilled…. Obviously I will return….few weeks at home… I am really looking forward to shed off some of the weariness I have put on in last 5-6 months….

I bet this one is going to be more than just a hometrip…. It will be fun……

and on top of all….I’ll be properly eating mangoes after 2 years…lol…yummmmm 😉

Home….sweet home…


>Well… Its all a mess… Nothing seems to be moving … life literally sucks…. But am getting amused at this transition in my life… At a point, it used to be happening every moment…now its as static as the frozen ice at the top of a glacier. Still, calm, cold and dead looking; yet waiting for its moment to get in action and to take away everything that comes in its way. Well, I might not be too constructive in this thought, but I know the moment the glacier inside me starts moving, it won’t take it long to gain momentum and flush out this boring-ness and static-ness outta my system.

May be its the silence before the storm.
I want to be silent for a few more days….May be one more month. Then I can start some of the things I have in my mind for quite sometime now. I’d be having my new lappy and enough time with my self….At least by then I’d be back from my visit to home. I sure do not want to shock my parents with the “glacier”… They won’t understand it anyways…lol..


>She saw him walking away,
Full in anger,
She heard the curses he muttered,
He sure meant them, whatever,

He wished she wouldn’t have done such things,
Never thought it will come down to this,
He never called her anything bad, not even mean,
He simply walked away with a tear in his eyes, that always remained unseen.


>Well, i know we have never been friends. We have never been anything but everything. I miss you girl. I know you can’t be here. You are thousands of miles away and perhaps we will never meet. Still I miss you. I want to talk to you for hours. I want to tell you about what I have learnt in all these years. I know perhaps you don’t care, still, I don’t either.

I just want to hug you one more time and look into those eyes forever. I want to see you. Only if you were here in India. I’d have come to see you by today’s train. If Only …


>Finally it has happened again. The girl whom I loved has deserted me again. Four relationships in 9 years. With the first one spanning 7+ years. I think that’s why I have become so familiar with this feeling now. It does hurt, of course it does. But one thing I am sure that these break ups are taking aay something from me. Ability to trust girls.i do not say that girls are bad, they are the most beautiful creation of god. All I am saying that perhaps I would not go for any relationship now as I have no more trust left in me to entrust a girl with.

All innocent faces, sweet voices will only remind me of this betrayal. Sweet they might be, beautiful they might be, but that does not give them any right to play with someone’s emotions. I tried so hard because I knew I was at fault. Else I’d have simply kicked her away. I knew it was my mistake which was causing all this but then I also knew that the mistake wasn’t so big that it should result in such a planned break up. Perhaps there were other things in her mind which she never told me. Anyways, I know that I have tried enough, more than enough to save the relationship we had. Someone was adamant on finishing things off, packing her bag and run away.

I think she wanted to end this anyways. Things she said a few days ago make complete sense now. She wanted a way out. I understand it now. I have no qualms, no complaints. What I hated about this break up was that though I knew she was concocting all this up for the sake of a simple alibi, I didn’t tell her this in her face. Perhaps because I was at fault in first place. I did not have the right to blame someone else.

Anyways, bye bye my 4th ex girlfiriend 🙂

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