Category: inspiration



>No. I am not going to direct a movie. I mean, thanks for the offer, but I am too busy this summer. Lol. The post title has nothing to do with Bruce Willis either or his fighting skills. Only thing common is the word, “Die” .
You might be thinking why “Die Easy 5.0” ?There are so many easy ways to die, why die the hard way then?

Okay, I’ll get back to my original thought behind this post. It is called, a will to quit smoking. I know there will be many people who would simply laugh this thing away. Its for such people I have titled this post “Die EASY 5.0”. “No one can quit smoking forever”, is one of the most famous statements which I have heard on suggesting my friends to quit smoking. People who smoke take it as a personal offense when someone asks them to quit smoking. I have myself behaved in a very irritated manner when my best friend asked me to quit smoking. I almost stopped talking to her. But she was the one who gave me the confidence in first place that quitting the stick is not a herculean task, but just a matter of self control. She would have been proud of me had she been watching me now. Anyways, that’s a different matter, although of heart, it has nothing to do with smoking. Whatever….

Many people have asked me reasons one must ponder over as to why she/he should boot the cigarette. The reasons are very simple. The most important is INSCRIBED on the pack of cigarettes. I hope you can see that, and if possible, read it too. So next time you buy yourself a pack, try reading things written all over it, and not just the price. It will enlighten you for sure, if you are dumb enough not to know till now.

Why do you smoke? Ask yourself. I am sure your reason must be among the following two:-
1) It makes me look cool.
2) I am addicted to it.

I can bet my 2 cents(yep that’s what I can afford at most ..lol..I dun even have 50 cents) that your reason would not be out of what I have listed above.
It actually starts with an innocent friend hanging out with his friends on a weekend. Or may be someone who has been out of his home for the first time into the INTERESTING and EXCITING world of college life and hostels. Or it may be someone who is simply awed by the stylishness of the way Rajanikanth lights up the cigarettes in between his fight with two dozen goons.
No matter how it starts, there is no “Only just for the first time”. The smoke always attracts the first timers.
A matchbox,a stick and few friends on the rooftop of college hostel. It seems like the perfect setting for masti. Actually, I have seen many chain smokers start like this only. Including me. I remember my first puff. My head spun and lungs wanted to blast off. It was really an “out-of-body” experience, as many of the smokers describe. Only, it was not a pleasant one. I was a smoker for 5 years, but there has not been a single day when I have not hated the smell of cigarette and felt uneasy at the smoke around me. Quite confusing na? These words coming from a chain smoker. Yes, even I think sometimes the reason I smoked when I never really liked it, and I found out that I had made it a part of my life, too integral to be scrapped away like that.

It does become a habit very quickly. Not my word, but from the scientists. I always used to laugh away at this and said that nicotine is NOT addictive. Now I do agree with it. What else can describe the craving for something which you know is bad for you, going to make you pay in order to buy death and going to be something which you will not be proud of telling to your parents. My parents never realized I was into smoking. I never told them either.

Going back to our reasons for smoking… Let’s talk them in detail..It’s actually sort of funny..

Reason-cum-Hallucination no. 1
-It makes me look cool.

Bah!!! ^%^$^%^@#@ I feel like saying many things, but I have to maintain some decency I think. So in one word, BS! If you think smoking is “the one” thing which takes away from you all your UNCOOLNESS and drowns you into a vast ocean of coolness, then I think you should rather consider going to Himalayas. You will feel pretty much cool there… Tell me… Do you really think if some girl sees you smoking she starts fancying you? Do you think that she will talk to you if she saw you smoking? Wake up loser!!! This is the word from the mouth of horse(or donkey) himself… Girls Hate smokers. No one likes to kiss you when your mouth is stinking of the dirty smell of cigarette and your clothes smell of the same. Actually, she would rather prefer to be as away from you as possible. So you see your coolness lands you in a cool pile shit as far as girls are considered. Besides, its no fashion show idiots!! You are not making a fashion statement by lighting that stick. And if you need a lighting stick in order to make a statement about your coolness among your friends, you really need to seriously introspect yourself. Losers!!!

Reason-cum-Hallucination no. 2
-I am addicted to it.

Get over it idiots! There is nothing like that. Addicted…lame excuse of an eternal loser who doesn’t have the balls to face himself in the mirror and tell himself to get his life going the right way. Instead, he simply goes on living the life as it comes and simply shrugs all the troubles in his life away. If you really want to quit smoking, then throw away that pack in your cupboard, or may be in you pocket. And make one simple vow of never touching it. A vow over your self respect, if you still have some left within yourself. If your heart is into quitting it, you will see that how easy it is to avoid it despite numerous chances to light it up and smoke up your life.
All the best you are thinking of quitting.

PS:- Just think what your parents will think of you if they found out you are a smoker. I am over this smoking thing and still unable to tell them that I used to smoke. It is one thing I am ashamed of. I was never so afraid even when I told them about the girl I loved. Now you can yourself assume how shameful it is when you have to uncover this “smoking truth” before your friends.They have too much faith in me. I can’t see it destroyed. I wish I can muster up enough courage someday to tell them about this. Pray For me friends 🙂


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At last… After missing Proc Mock 1 and Proc mock 2, not to forget numerous moct cat exams and AIMCAT 1020,1019,1018,1017 and 1016, I got myself enrolled into TIME and CL test series. It was really getting too late and I am glad I enrolled myself finally. I always wondered what it could be like to take a test online?? I mean, last year I did take some tests online by CL, but to take these tests in a real test environment was an experience which was completely alien it.
So on fateful day of 2nd August, after requesting my CL centre coordinator to get me a slot when there was non available on SIS , I got the 10 am slot.

Whoa!! It took quite some time to get connected after entering the centre code into my sis test taking system. And lo! it was hanging time and again… So I was transferred to a different computer and started my test.

1st Blood :- I was shocked to see there were just two sections, instead of three. Actually I should not have been so much surprised, but as I was out of touch with CAT and its world, it took me quite some time to understand what was in front of me. Two sections, overall 80 questions. QA+LRDI in one section and EURC in another. 4 marks for a correct one, and -1 for every wrong one. “Well, that’s easy!!”, I thought to myself.

30 minutes into the test:-

“Damn it”, I told myself and checked my attempts. just 6 😐 This was really getting on my nerves. I was lagging in my favorite section, the one I always thought to be my stronghold. The reason :- My lack of practice with QA and LRDI was taking its toll on me. I wondered if I really needed a reality check.

1 hours 30 minutes gone :-

“Hmmmm.. not so bad”, I looked at the count of attempts and it said 17…hmmm… though not upto my standards, it still was a satisfaction. 90/17 =5.xx minutes per question. Not that bad if the accuracy was as much as I was calculating.

“60 minutes more…”

I clicked on the EURC section tab. 40 questions…60 minutes… I had pre-decided about this section to attempt as many questions in this section. I started with all non-RC questions, especially the sentence correction ones and fill in the blanks.

30 minutes remaining:-
Only RCs were left. “It’s Time…”, I told myself and started the RC section with all my enthusiasm.
Philosophical RCs have always been my most hated ones, not because they are so abstruse, but because they do not know themselves what they are meant to describe. they start with something, describe something else, and end with a completely new thing. It’s really irritating to spend 10 minutes and learn that it’s not worth attempting.

Anyways, I had decided to attempt maximum questions, so I stuck to my strategy and attempting even the most boring RCs and just hoped the results were as good as I expected them to be.

150 minutes :-
Test was over and it auto submitted itself.

I clicked on the link to check expected percentile.

89%ile was what the mail sent to me from CL people read.
I was really shocked. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I expected something like 95+ %ile.

Later, after some days when the complete solutions came out, I came to know that I had got 97%ile in EURC, my weakest link till that day.

The even bigger shock was in the form of my QA+LRDI %ile. Just 67%ile.

I wasn’t shocked, but I decided to give my QA+LRDI proper attention and turn this performaance into a positive one.

i am still working on it.
🙂

Will post soon about my trysts with CAT preparations.


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How often do you find a person who is an Engineer,Doctor,Journalist,Teacher etc etc etc, and is preparing for MBA? Not quite often? Well, I guess you are a loner, you do not socialize at all then.
Out of 10 people I meet, 7 are preparing for MBA or thinking about it as they “think”(I doubt that) that it would “give a boost” to their careers. Some say they want a better paycheck(Now this I can understand, but still have issues with it), while others say that it is their “Dream”. Still many are out there who simply are not too sure of the reason, but again they “think” it must be good, since everyone is doing it( Like it’s some new form of sex…eh…)

Well, why do we feel the need in first place to get an MBA degree? Is it the money?Or the career boost (or bournvita for that reason) thing? Or is it just a hazy dream(do not confuse with “wet dreams”) ? My question is, is it really what we think it is?

No! It is not that. There has to be more to it. Don’t you want to become someone else because you failed in becoming what you were meant to be, what you were taught to be. You failed to grasp the engineering concepts and today you are at complete loss as to how to direct the workers under you to fix a certain machine which stopped working last weekend. You failed to understand your networks paper properly(spending too much time checking girls out in the class?) and the result is today you can’t fix the issue in creating a secure network at your workplace. Or do you find yourself at the abyss of self confidence when it comes to manage your class, or reporting an accident to your local newspaper office?

So you have decided to run away. Great. You are on your way to become a certified loser. I would not stop you. Why? Simple, you would go on committing such mistakes, giving me apt reason and matter to write on(you see, writing is my hobby…and I sure enjoy it). Also, it would take more than just an advice to make you realise that you have committed a mistake by taking up MBA course at the cost of abandoning your current profession. It will take you a very much coveted MBA job to realise that. The moment when you realise that the MBA job is even tougher than your previous job, you would feel like running away from there also. And I bet you would not have any place to go then. Why? Ask yourself, weren’t it you who abandoned all you had just to get that “dream” fulfilled, to get that “extra money”, to have your share of career”boost”(I prefer complan and bournvita btw) and to get that sense of “I am doing it the right way as everyone is doing it that way…So what if I am getting screwed? Everyone is!!” Well I don’t think you would have same notions about all this MBA things then as you have now.

I am not advocating against MBA or something. I am just saying, do not go for it thinking that it will “change the course of your life”, because it would not. If you think running away from your responsibilities can make you immune to them, or can transform you into something who would learn other things quite effortlessly, then either you are a genius, or you-know-who. Riding up the ladder is not a bad thing, it never is! But jumping from one ladder to another just because yours had a tilted leg puts you in a grave danger. You do not have your ladder which you knew so well, and you will have to balance yourself on a new ladder which will sure take more time and even more effort.

So be sure about this MBA thing before you fill up the forms.. 😛

PS:- All this was written in a hazy state of mind, under the effect of studying hacking, web designing, Quants, EURC , hard rock music and a resolution of being smoke free(and hopefully liquor free) for a lifetime(which is not gonna end anywhere soon, not atleast for next 50-60 years)


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Well, I was an avid fan of IE. I was. Till yesterday. Something happened to IE 8 or blogger’s compatibility with it and a certain gadget(in fact two), Google friend connect, won’t show up. Though I was able to see that I still had 8 followers, the gadget wasn’t getting displayed on the blog.

I was really troubled when another gadget, “My recent posts” misbehaved in the same manner and disappeared. I thought there was some cookie error and simply reset my all IE settings. Now I have used IE 7 a lot but this is IE 8. Somethings are still there to be understood. So after toiling all night, trying to figure out what exactly is wrong with my blog, I turned to internet help.

In Google’s help menu I found numerous of troubled bloggers, bugged by the same syndrome as me. The most hilarious part was that some of my friends were able to see the same gadget on my blog(Not sure what was their browser), but I wasn’t able to view even others’ gadget!!!

“What crap!”, I muttered and tried the same thing in Mozilla. Eureka!!! It is working! i was like, after hours of labour and research(during which I restored my system twice and unrestored it once), I was finally able to view my blog as I wanted to.

I am a Mozilla fan now. I do not know if I would go back to IE-8 now, but I am not completely gonna abandon it. Its like first love.


>Watched Shawshank redemption after a gap of 7 months. A movie which always stirs up my soul and helps me conquer my demons. It is a real inspiration. 😀

I am.

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