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>”Never fear the consequences/ fear what will happen. cos what you fear may/will really happen. But life does not stop. “

Just a stolen quote from Namrata πŸ™‚ Might look simple to many, still has a lot to learn from ….


>First of all…the credit for the idea for this post goes to http://voiceswithinspeak.blogspot.com/

It sort of inspired me to write this post…though in past I was tempted a lot to do something like this… but was either too lazy or too busy to do it..now that I am doing it..here it is… πŸ˜›

LAST TIMES…
1. Last beverage: Yesterday night…7up πŸ˜›
2. Last phone call: Papa
3. Last text message from : Citibank account balance 😐
4. Last song you listened to: I don’t know you anymore
5. Last time you cried: Well… 13 days before 😐

HAVE YOU EVER…
6. Dated someone twice: Yes…
7. Been cheated on? : Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: Eh…. No… πŸ˜›
9. Lost someone special? Yep…
10. Been depressed? a BIG YEP
11. Been drunk and threw up? hmmmmm…. well yes… 😐 that was once…i mean twice till now 😐

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Black
14. Black
15. Black

πŸ˜›

FIRSTS :
16. Made new friends: KG πŸ˜›
17. Fallen out of love: hmmm..yes…once… 2 years ago
18. Laughed until you cried: watching hera-pheri πŸ˜›
19. Met someone who changed you: yes…only one person..
20. Found out who your true friends were: In college… we stuck together by each other…that’s friendship..right???
21. Found out someone was talking about you: lol…many times….mannnnnnnnny times…

HAVE YOU:
22. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Yes…though we are not friends anymore πŸ™‚
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Well….if I go to FB…it should be 10%…orkut 70%…twitter 40%
24. How many kids do you want to have: As long as they do not potty every here and there 😐
25. Do you have any pets: No and neither wanna have…kids are enough to do the potty stuff…
26. Do you want to change your name: I wanted to…. until the revelation
27. What did you do for your last birthday: Talked to myself…something i rarely do
28.What time did you wake up today: 5:25 am 😐
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Thankfully, sleeping
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for : LIFE
31. Last time you saw your father: 4 months ago 😐
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: LIFE…or ME
33. Most visited web page: FB,GMAIL,BLOG, and GOOGLE NEWS

WHAT’S YOUR :
34. Name: Navneet
35. Nicknames: Miku(pet name πŸ˜› ), mickey mouse 😐 , Psycho (Friends πŸ™‚ ) , Navi(courtsey “her”), Navu(courtsey a different “her” πŸ˜› ) and the list goes on πŸ˜›
36. Zodiac sign: Capricorn
37. Male or female or transgender : Find yourself πŸ˜›
38. Elementary: Kalgidhar National Public school (dammit my memory..i still remember these names), New Delhi
39. Colleges: BIT SINDRI,dhanbad
40. Hair color: Black/Brown… depends on how you see it πŸ˜›
41. Long or short: Pendulumish…Sometimes loooooong…sometimes cropped πŸ˜›
42. Height: 5’8.5″ (i cant afford to lose those 0.5″ 😐 )
43. Do you have a crush on someone? Which someone are you talking about??? πŸ˜› There are so many someones πŸ˜€
44. Ever been in love? Uh…Well…mmm.. i think… ufff.. Haan bhai haan… πŸ˜› many times πŸ˜›
45. Piercings? I can hear with the natural hole in my ears…and can breathe with the natural holes in my nose…why should i get any more??? πŸ˜›
46. Tattoos? I wish…but no.. 😦
47. Righty or lefty: Righty and occasionally lefty… πŸ˜›
48. First surgery: 2002
49. First piercing: No firsts..no lasts..
50. First best friend: Saurabh
51. First sport you loved: Contrary to what others would think… it was football…
52. First pet : thankfully none..if you do not count my sister as a pet πŸ˜›
53. First vacation: Shimla, nainitaal,and whole north india with papa nd mom wen i was 3 πŸ˜€
54. First concert: 😦 none 😦
55. First crush: 😐 Priety zinta
56. Eating: Chicken….Chicken…Chicken… 😐 ok..and rajma too…
57. Drinking: Is that an offer??? πŸ˜›
58. I’m about to: Resist another attempt from the rascal inside me to force me to smoke…and to watch some 3-4 movies…may be LOTR series..again 😐
60. Waiting for: No one.. or may be… 😐

YOUR FUTURE
61. Want kids? Depends… if married , yes,,,if not…NO!!!!
62. Want to get married? Eh…. ok… when can we meet???? πŸ˜›
63. Careers in mind? 😐 please… do not confuse me… career..i dun have one… I want to enjoy whatever I do rather than thinking it as a career

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
64. Lips or eyes: BOTH…. hmmmm.. ok…LIPS πŸ˜›
65. Hugs or kisses: KISSES
66. Shorter or taller: Both!!!
67. Older or Younger: I do not see the difference 😐
68. Romantic or spontaneous: BOTH!!! πŸ˜›
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: πŸ˜› πŸ˜› πŸ˜› Nice stomach πŸ˜›
70. Sensitive or loud: Loud!!! πŸ˜› (I know am getting dirty πŸ˜› )
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship!!! strictly!
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Ahhh.. :O :O :O πŸ˜› BOTH BOTH BOTH!!!

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: Well…NO
74. Lost glasses/contacts: NOPE..I dun have chasmaaaa πŸ˜›
75. Been on a blind date? : Well…not exact-leee πŸ˜›
76. Broken some one’s heart: Yes 😦
77. Had your own heart broken: YES πŸ™‚
78. Been arrested: Yes…by a girl’s voice 9 years ago…
79. Turned someone down: Hmmmm… No.. πŸ˜›
80. Cried when someone died: Dunno…. perhaps no..
81. Liked a friend that is a girl?: Yes..but just as a friend πŸ™‚ I have many πŸ˜›

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: No…I would be the last person I would trust…still I am myself’s best friend πŸ™‚
82. Miracles: Yes
83. God: Not when this moron breaks its promises X-(
84. Love at first sight: Never..nor will be…I am not that type
85. Heaven: Yes..have been there once…wanna go again before I die πŸ™‚
86. Santa Claus: Hmmmm… yes
87. Kiss on the first date? : πŸ˜› Yes
88. Angels: Yep…there are so many in this world πŸ˜›
89. Devils: I am πŸ˜›

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? hmmmm…. no.. sadly..there is none…
91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? NO…:P lol
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? : That should be an obvious answer…YES
93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Hmmmm… πŸ˜› secret πŸ˜›
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? I do not regret…. πŸ˜€
95. Wanted to steal you friend’s boyfriend / girlfriend? : hmmmm.. πŸ˜› I did it already πŸ˜› no hard feelings though πŸ˜›

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR :
96. White: PG TEES πŸ˜›
97. Black: EVERYTHING!!!! YUP…EVERYTHING!!! πŸ˜›
98. Red: πŸ˜› EX-Company tag
99. Pink: A sweater mom weaved for me that I wore only when I was inside my home πŸ˜› nowhere else :p

>Back to the future


>I am back on the track. Took my time but now its working fine, my useless brain.. lol… Something exciting coming up…from early morning pics to experiences of a new kind… And as usual..girls πŸ˜€


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hmmm… Nice title…what you think? I think it is pretty good. Nice way to start a rather controversial issue. Well, not everyone agrees with me, but then, I never ask anyone to. :p

Back to the topic again, “Are you suffocating?” I mean, I am not talking about that cigarette that you smoked 37 minutes ago, neither about how you are feeling in the loo this early morning. No…. I prefer to talk about them rather straight forwardly . Arghhhhh…ok ok..

When was the last time you really felt at peace with her/him without wanting to feel so? I mean, you should not be looking for internal satisfaction, it should be always there, right? I have seen many relationships; not to forget some of mine too; where either one or the both of the participants(well a rather crude term to use, but then, lets be frank here at least) were just pretending so much to show the other one that they were happy that they almost forget the real meaning of happiness. It is not something which takes a ticket and catches a train, so that it can reach to you at a specified time and place. I hope you do not have that notion of happiness.

So do you feel a longing inside you even now? Despite having so many parties to attend together, how many times do you have dinner together on a non-party day? Is the relationship only meant for parties? I mean okay, in Indian context I am not going to be focusing much on Live-in relationships(though I want to, and I promise will write on it someday), still having a dinner with your better half is no more a taboo in Indian culture!! At least I do not think so! So, tell me, despite him doing so many “cute” and “sweet” things for you, how many times it had been the case that you have expected him to show some more love and were disappointed, only to put up a face still smiling and never telling him how you felt. You’d rather tell your inner self that everything is okay and it is the way life goes. Does it?? Is it what you wanted 1 year back? Are the scenarios same? Are you afraid of talking to him about the issues on your mind? Or are you too afraid of letting go of the stability in your life? Afraid of feeling like a loser?

For guys, I think I can explain your agony with your loved one much better as I am a guy(yes…stop grinning). “Why was her cell busy despite her telling about her studying and not being able to talk to me”, or “Is there someone else”, or “Why is she behaving so strange” to “Why she always starts the same issue…I told her there is nothing between me and my ex!!!” . Remember something??? :p Yes…that’s the way with guys, they will think all this, and will never ask the other one just because they are too afraid and insecure about making things worse than they already are. Wake up guys, it is the best thing to mouth your fears rather than accumulating them inside which often results in bizarre results. It is never wrong to say what is in your mind…never

So .. all I want to say is that do not suffocate… rise up and say what is inside your mind…if the other person loves you so much as both of you think, there should not be any space for such holes in a relationship which suck away all the melody from it.


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Nothing big…just small. Blog has gone some makeover and I hope it is better than ever before. Visibility is good and I find this minimalistic design thing very comfortable to deal with. Though I have made a hell lot of changes in the original, one thing I love in the original was vast space it gives the user, atleast the user knows he has a very big big big page to view.

I hope you will like it. Please drop in suggestions about it. I would love to hear from you people.

RocK ON!!!


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I lie on my bed, trying your number,
it says you’re busy, “where” I wonder,
It rings for a while,and I start to smile,
Only to know that,you have cut it again,

I think of times, when you were not so cold,
I think of times, when I thought you were too bold,
You never ignored me,you dint run away,
I never thought, life would turn this way,

We liked each other, and we liked the way it was,
Never realised it was so fragile,just like glass,
We never complained, we never fought,
And faced together, the troubles life brought,

You said you loved me, what we had was all true,
Every sorrow was gone and every joy was new,
Now when I think of that, I wonder where it went,
That smile of yours, that smell of your scent,

I wonder where we lost, what made us pay this cost,
Why you became so cold,just like the winter frost,
I am still try to call you,trying to get you back,
May be we can make it work,despite evrything we lack.


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I was working about half an hour ago. Learning web designing. Just then I felt like urge of listening to a song by mohit chauhan. Actually my room mates were boozing a few hours ago and they were all searching for this one song and could not find it. I thought of playing it now that all are asleep and no one is here to disturb me. I played the song… “Tumse hi…” I suddenly became motionless. I do not know what effect this song had me at that moment, but I sure did feel like an urge of dancing with her.

It rarely happens to me. I am not someone who would let himself fall apart like this. But in that one moment, I knew I missed her. I knew I felt the urge to hug her, to tell her that I love her, to kiss her. I wanted to see her. A tear might have trickled down. I do not know. I do not want to know. I loved that one moment after a long long time.

I do not want to feel like that ever again. It hurts a lot. 😦

I didn’t smoke or drink today while my friends were at it.


>If you could remember, I posted my CAT story from Pagalguy sometime back. That was the first part of my story. I am posting now the second part, which is by no means the final one, as I am yet to script my story. Will post the final part sometime next year when I am sure my war with CAT is over. Here is the post I wrote:-

Continued from

CAT’s a coffee shop on the highway (All I wanted to Speak about CAT)

Well… I had penned down my experience till 2007 season before, but thought of writing the things that happened thereafter as I have learnt new things during last one year. First of all my apologies to those who might find it rather long and unnecessary in first place, I just had to write it, if only for my own sake.

A job which keeps you engaged from 7 in the morning till 10-11-12 in the night is not the most optimum one to prepare for the MBA exams (especially CAT) side by side. Reasons? Well… you would not like it when its 1 am in the morning while you are munching ( or shall I rather say, swallowing) your dinner while reading the funda books or a novel. You keep studying till 3-4 am in the morning and wake up again at 7 in the morning, only to realise that the washroom is occupied and you will be again running after your company bus for the umpteenth time this week. You sure make good friends with the rickshaw wallahs and the driver and conductor of the bus this way though. I am sure you would like to spend your time in a better manner than this.

Well, the only one good thing Mumbai traffic has given me is the plenty of time in the bus to study and to sleep. Its really a bliss when the bus is stuck in the traffic and you are solving mathematics, the concentration you can create is AWESOME…I loved doing that. Besides, it also meant I would be spending less time in office and so the burden would be lesser than usual(or so I thought…lol).

Now comes the office part. One lesson. Never ever tell anyone in your office( unless they are completely harmless or are your bestest of friends) that you are preparing for MBA. Not at least when she/he is your PM/BDO/Senior Manager. It helps little to your already hectic schedule when you are reprimanded on not finishing the given task within the time frame(which of course is lesser than the life span of antimatter). Also, it is very much probable that you will be taunted that your work is getting affected due to your MBA preparations(They seldom think its the other way round). Huh.

Well…do not let your senior know of the MBA sites you have been surfing of late. She/He might as well stalk you there too and ask you to not to use these sites and rather concentrate on your work. USE LUNCH TIME FOR ALL READING(IF YOU CAN DO WITHOUT GETTING CAUGHT). HAVE LUNCH WHEN YOUR SENIOR RETURNS FROM THE LUNCH.

Get back on the first bus to home rather than waiting and working in the office till 10 pm in the night. It is really irritating when you have to do that as you know that you will not be getting enough time to study and sleep early and that you will be caught in the loop again.

Well… Now you know what I went through last 1 year. I enrolled into CL weekend classes and surprised myself by performing really good. I mean, I got 74%ile in the diagnostic mock. And thereafter I improved myself pretty good. I never felt like I was out of touch or something like that. But the real surprise came when I took the 1st mock. I got a pretty decent 95+%ile. It was really morale boosting. Thereafter I kept studying regularly.

NOTE:- DO NOT FALL FOR ANY (AND THAT MEANS ANY ANY ANY) GIRL IN YOUR COACHING CENTRE. YOU STOP CONCENTRATING ON YOUR STUDIES PROPERLY AND THE RESULTS ARE HAMPERED. I FELL FOR SOMEONE AND THEN FELL TO 80%ILE IN MY 4TH MOCK( OR MAY BE 5TH).

Practice regularly even if you think you are very good in some specific section. Do not become complacent. Also, give more time to your weak section and do not just ignore or believe your mock scores. They are like convex mirrors… “Images in the mirror are closer than they look” Remember na??I scored almost at an average of 96-97%ile….barring a few occasions, when I crossed 99.97%ile once and also 78%ile. Apart from those mocks…95-99 was my domain, and I thought I was pretty much on the track. At least I thought that….

NOTE:- DO NOT LET YOUR EX-GFS SPOIL YOUR LIFE AGAIN. THEY HAVE DONE THAT ONCE, SO THEY KNOW HOW TO DO IT AGAIN. YOU HAVE SUFFERED ONCE, SO YOU SHOULD ALSO KNOW HOW NOT TO SUFFER AGAIN.

The PG meets meanwhile were an eye-opener for me. I have made many friends through these meets, and have learnt a lot from them. Some of them are pursuing their MBAs this year, while some will start the journey with me. I even got selected in Mumbai Dream team in PGPL, which failed finally. But it has given me such a network of friends that I do really feel proud to among them. Someday, I want to make them proud of me too.(I know, it would be an exception…lol)Well, the forms were out and as I had planned, I filled almost all of my choice of colleges. I wonder though, why do CAT people do not come out with the correct solutions within a week of the exam. This way we students/aspirants would not have to fill up each and every damn form. Is it so that CAT people do not have proper solutions to the questions before conduction the exam? Is it so??? to CAT management committee.Well, I think I spent around 14k on the MBA forms last year. Would not be repeating the mistake this time round. Hit something…some CAT question from CAT 2009…. hospital rounds??? lol … Anyways, I went on an extensive 20 day vacation to my native place(not before fighting with my seniors a lot for extending it from 15 to 20 days). It helped me a lot in becoming the complacent Navi I am famous for. I really became complacent in the name of taking lesser tension. It seems that’s when I lost it.

Come C-Day and the first thing I remember is when I was out of the Examination hall. The 150 minutes were a blur. All I could remember was that there were 40 questions in EURC(my nemesis the last time round), and 25-25 in other two sections. Quantss initially seemed tough to me, but then I chose the right questions and solved 12 of them. DI again was too much math-a-pachhi doing, but I seemed to find a way round and solved only the right questions. 10 in DI.

Now I turned to my nemesis. EURC. I saw the watch. I had 55 minutes. I browsed through the section and found it rather easy. NO FIJS…lol… Some sentence corrections, some RCs, some grammar mistakes…”That’s all?? “, I asked myself. BIG BIG BIG MISTAKE. For once again, I became complacent. It cost me speed and accuracy, both. And finally an IIM seat. I could solve only 18 when others did 24-30 and some even all questions.

Final results.
QA- 12 attempted-All correct-48 marks..98.xx %ile
LRDI- 10 attempted- All correct-40 marks.. 97%ile
EURC 18 attempted- 8 correct-10 incorrrect-22 marks- A PATHETIC 64.xx %ile…

FINAL- 95.12%ile

Calls. IMT-G,TAPMI,IMI-Delhi
I was devastated.
Even XAT could not get me through. Just 97%ile.
JMET- not qualified.
FMS – not qualified
SNAP – uski to
IIFT -not qualified( unki bhi )

Finally Attended only IMT-G and IMI-D GD-PIs. Skipped TAPMI after reaching the college(They were asking for 10 L as course fee)
Meanwhile, I lost my job one fine day after slogging for 15 hours on average in office. Reason:- No reason. Unki bhi
I went through 2 breakups during this time which added no respite to my already going bad phase. But , but but but, 1 thing I learnt that no matter no one stands by me, I will always be there for myself.

Most of the first half of this year, I have been busy looking for a new job, not in software/private sector anymore. Stability is the word for me this time, in the government sector. I do not know where this quest will lead me and I have had my share of doubts over my ability. But I have come through all of them, with full faith in myself and now again I am preparing for season 2009. Though I still have to enrol for any test series, I will do it soon and when I am there, I know I will sail through this sea of uncertainty.

I wish next time I write my experience, its all on a positive note and I have at last something to boast of and to be proud about.

PS:- Do not go seeing off your ex on CST airport. It makes you more emotional and weak than you would ever want to be.

See you friends… see you soon

Till then…. Rock ON…

P.P.S. :- Most important lesson I learnt was to struggle in the worst of the times. Though I am still struggling hard with circumstances, I have the belief and more importantly, a guard against complacency this time. I just hope I peak at the right time, not like the last time, when I peaked too early and went down thereafter.


>I am quite regular on Pagalguy except when I was devoid of a system to surf with. I have made some very good friends over there and one fine day, one of them told me about a blog Phadoogyan. I visited the blog and was quite impressed by the quality of posts there. Suddenly an idea flashed through my mind and I decided to get in touch with the owner of the blog. Actually I wanted to write for the blog.
Yes… you got me right. I wanted to write for someone else’ blog. I have this belief in me that more you write the more you learn and vice versa. I had no clue about what I would write over there but I knew that I will. I got in touch with the owner of the blog, Neerav, and it turned out that he too was a friend from Pagalguy. So, it turned out to be rather easy to get the writing job and I was formally invited to write on his blog.

Now the big question was … “What to write” . I know that being a regular blogger it should not be too difficult for me to write on any given topic but what when you do not know what to write about. It was not a day-to-day post. It was a guest post and had to be something very different and at the same time, something that should appeal to the followers of the blog.

Well… As you know I am going through a rather rough patch in my life, I decided to write about it. I decided to write about one of my all time biggest confusions, “Why do I want to do an MBA?” As I started writing, I realised in order to broaden the range of the post, I must address the similar confusions which arise in the mind of a common MBA aspirant. So, the post now became “Why not to do an MBA?” and believe it or not, I was rather feeling jealous of Neerav for his blog would be having that post, and mine won’t(Of course, coz its a guest post !!!)

Anyways, I felt like sharing the post with you and the best way to do it would be to link the post here. Please access the post here-> “WHY NOT TO DO AN MBA?”
I’d love to have your comments. I always look for critics.
Thanks a lot friends. See you soon.


>He Comes in the morning, we are still asleep,
Oblivious of outer world, while he picks our crap.
He always stinks, and I feel like yukkkk,
Sometimes I pity him, for his hard luck,

He goes from house to house, but seldom his own,
Leaving his son every morning,who has not yet grown,
I detest him, “What a filthy person!!”,
For he wears the same stinky clothes,come may whatever season,

I eat the sandwich, with the coffee or juice,
He works so hard, so that he can pay off his dues,
He works hard in the summer heat,
while I enjoy my wine and meat,

He toils hard for his family on the footpath, well so do I!
But he dreams of unending work walking all day, and never to fly,
I throw a bowl of rice, didn’t feel like eating,
His children have not eaten for last 2 days,

I wear my new jeans, my 3rd this month,
His wife mends her dress, coz its time for festivals,
My kids wanted a new TV, I bought it today,
His family was happy to get a gift, a new roof cover,

Had a party at home, for its new year’s eve,
We ate good, drank and it was fun to groove,
Next day I didn’t see him,”Must be celebrating!”
I was pissed off by afternoon, coz the garbage was smelling,

Two weeks have passed, and I know he won’t come now,
Some drunk drove on the footpath, and “The Ragpicker” was gone.
His face appears before me, whenever I see the rag bin

I perhaps miss that wrinkled face,his gleaming eyes,
and the yellow gloves on his hands,
Though I got someone else for the job,
His picture in my memory still hangs.


>Well…

It begins now.

I am BACK.

No apologies for the inconveniences to come in future.

>Minor changes in the blog.


>Well, I was thinking and decided that this blog needs some renovation. Positive of course.
So I’d be experimenting with some of the themes I have picked up in last few days.
Please put in your comments about the newer themes. I would love to see the reaction from all of you.


>Well…. Someone once said that the world is a stage and we all are here to play our parts….. seems mine is going unnoticed…. I dunno wats wrong with this blog…but I simply get almost 0 people reading it and exactly 0 commenting. Well, I guess its just me here.

No issues. I will continue. And may be I won’t get anyone to read what I write, I will still write. I still do remember my motive of starting this blog, “To get things out of my system”.

I have to write my story. Fast.
Soon.


>Well… I was lost…

Have said many bad things and and have thought too ugly of everyone when I realized that it was me who was making the situations worse by doing this to myself. So I have stopped now. And it feels calm. Peace atleast with myself. I do not need peace with others. I have stopped fighting with myself.

I am happy now. πŸ™‚

I am going home, finally on 9th.

πŸ™‚


>Why do people marry? … I have some options…But would like to hear from you fellas….(If any) …think of some most innovative answers….and some serious ones… I am in the middle of this question….

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