Category: 2010

>This is IT!

>So finally back from the hospital 😆 funny life…

And I used to think that finally my ordeals are over…..that finally I had the person I would have loved to spend my life with, to share my happiness and woes…

lol…. Life proves me wrong everytime …lol…

This thing has become a sort of Deja Vu to me :p keeps happening again and again….

I pray from my heart that I never fall in love again. It’s already a fucked up life. I do not want any more heartbreaks.

PS:- Did something today which was stupid and I will never forgive myself for it. Did it coz was silly enough to think that it would get me some attention. 🙂 So naive of me….. SO NAIVE…

U need to grow up dude….   they just do not deserve you…. grow up or fuck off….

>For You :p


So those eyes just lifted up, and looked at me in a huff,
The frown was there, still all I saw was love,
In those lovely big eyes, I saw the anger was fake,
coz no matter what she said, her eyes showed no hate,

They sparkled all bright, like stars twinkle in night,
And defied all the anger, taking away all my plight,
Oh..What I wouldn’t give away, to get her just one sight,
Would fall down in any abyss, and go up to any height,

If only she says, would do anything for her sake,
And would bear all the pain, more than anyone can take,
Will swim down the oceans,rivers and even the lake,
To prove that my love’s true, to show there’s nothing fake

>Well, 0333 hours… 🙂

666/2=333 :p

Perhaps one of those nights when neither your mind nor your heart seem to appreciate one important need of your body, the  need to sleep. I am wide awake even after knowing that I should be asleep hours ago, but that’s not what this post would focus on. It would not perhaps even focus on anything in specific, not the fact that I am perhaps lost in between my career, my dreams, my family and myself; neither would it be about the work that I have been assigned to at my current job and the responsibility that has been bestowed upon me hence. This post is about someone who perhaps took a wrong turn(or as others believe) somewhere down the line and is a completely different person than what he would have been had he not done certain things in his life.

I know this seems like a lot of nostalgia at first sight, but trust me, there is none. None from my side. Neither is there any sympathy. The only feeling I have for the person in discussion is of amusement. The 16 year  old dreamy eyed boy never thought back then that 10 years down the lane he would proud calling himself someone who is shrewd, cunning, barely honest and arrogant enough to accept it all. I used to know him, long time ago. Perhaps I still do, but there are a lot of things now, things that matter more to me than that 16 year old boy. There is money, career, MBA. There are things that he never would have ever been able to even dreamt of. There are girls, drinks, people who he would have never been able to understand. There is smoke, a lot of it. Then there is an insatiable hunger for something that I do not understand myself. There is this rat race and he is simply sitting in the crowd, seeing me run through it, kicking others and becoming happy at the thought of having eliminated the competition.

I need him I think. I need some sanity. I need innocence, atleast this one last thing.
Hope I do not become my own monster.

>Not yet


Which way to go, what road to walk,He asks the winds
hoping for an answer, which no one has it seems,
If he goes left, will he get what he wants?
Or may be the right,to drive away the fear that haunts,
He doesn’t know, Not yet, May be tomorrow, But not yet,
Should he go for the woods, and search the unknown,
or head for the crowd, and be secured about his future,
some say go your own way, but no one tells how to,
some say to do what’s the best for him, as if he knew it all the time,
He doesn’t know, Not yet, May be tomorrow, But not yet,

The paths call for him, luring him with promises, and surprises,
He often gets tempted, for he’s just a boy, who has many a dreams,
This confusion is tearing him apart, and pulling him in all directions,
He wants to take a decision, but halts at the crossroads,wondering if his compass is right,
He doesn’t know, Not yet, May be tomorrow, But not yet.



Well…. this is for someone whom I love very much, and who perhaps doesn’t understand the true nature of my love. Dint know how to express myself and how to convince her. So wrote this. Hope this will help….

For you my love. 🙂

Its like a dream, to look into those beautiful eyes,
To look into the face that defies everything, the face sans this world’s cruel lies,
She says something, I try hard to concentrate,
But fail to grasp a word,lost in those lovely eyes,Which clean away all the hate,

I look at her walking,she’s lost in her thoughts,
I wish I could be with her, atleast that’s what my heart shouts,
Wondering what would she say,If I say something stupid,
So I try to make things simple,try to be calm,and to make things lucid,

She laughs at something,and I can really hear the chimes,
And maybe she’d find this poem boring,for the stupid way it rhymes,
Something crosses her mind, and she smiles the sweetest smile,
And all my efforts to unaffected,to be neutral are again futile.

And when she looks at me with those lovely eyes,
I get sort of transfixed,like my legs are frozen in the ice,
And I wish I could tell her the way I feel for her,
The girl of my dreams,The Fairy who can fly without a flutter.

>The same ol’ dream…

>CAT, I am coming.


PS:- Thanks a lot for making me realise what I am. Thanks a lot dearest.

>Here I am, This is ME! \m/


“THE” Machine

The Man and the Machine

Need I say more??? 😀

Well… It has been ages since I wrote something meaningful.. 🙂 I know waise bhi I seldom do.

There have been changes on many fronts. Personal, professional and vellapanti also :p . Yep…its also a part of my life…vellapanti.. :p

Personal life has been in tumultuous for sure for last four months… with me losing the way on more than just a few occasions…but thanks to my guiding light…( searches for his torch). after every thunderstorm or foggy nights I have always landed on an island full of coconuts(I really like their usability) and crabs (wish I eat some of them finally this year), not to forget the beautiful mermaids :P.

After a long long time I have felt like this regarding my LIFE…and it includes everything I need/want/have . Except for a few spam mails…life is going quite smooth… :p And believe me…sometimes there are spam calls and messages too!!

Recently discovered that someone I trusted and loved from my core has been doing things behind my back and has been telling things to people… lol… was sure shocked and hurt… but dint took much long to recover from that… :p I think the person in question got the apt punishment/reminder of the fact that I do have a spine …finally…I DO HAVE A SPINE!

There has been someone occupying my thoughts all the time for quite sometime and I think it wont be an exaggeration to say that I am in love…. well…depends on how you look at it when you consider that I have been in love 4 more times :rolls-his-eyes: . Okay…you can play your part of character and moral judges but I know the truth…so I need not give any explanation to anyone…Perhaps that was a very strong statement… I should keep away from making such strong statements… But kya karein…inna arrogance bhar ke rakha hua hai..kahan chupau!!! :p
Well… feels nice writing your mind out after such a long long time…Wanted to write a poem for someone in first place but then couldn’t get my thoughts together… And for the perfectionist/border-ist/all or nothing-ist I am, I decided to let the time and emotions take its own course rather than forcing anything artificial on them….

\m/ Dil kyun ye mera shor kare…-2
idhar nahi, udhar nahi…
teri or chale…. :inlove:

Damn!!!I feel like dancing… I did yesterday!! :p

>I love eeeeuuu :P

Well…ummm… okkk.. 😛

And I love the way she looks at me, mesmerizing me with her smile,
I feel like staring at an angel, like in deserts flows the Nile,
I gaze at her face, with her hair flying on her face,Like clouds cover the moon,
A thousand storms rise my heart, and dance to her every tune.

PS:- Listening to the song “Rythm Divine” thinking about someone can really get you turn very romantic :sigh:

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