Archive for January, 2011



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Sometimes we are so involved in things that we forget to remember the eternal truth that one day, sooner or later, it WILL have to end. And we will have to make a way through the woods, face hard times, be devoid of what we so badly love and would give anything for. Perhaps then, it is not much surprising that we are hurt and long for the past to return once it has gone.

Will write more… Will edit this… But for now… just this much

Back as promised, though I can bet my life that there has been a sort of 180 degrees shift in my mood and motive of this post since I started.

Was talking to a friend and she started asking about my past(read my ex girl friends) and one thing led to another and I ended up telling her a much shorter version of the story I could never post here. Not of much value in this world where there are much more serious things to be discussed upon and problems to be worried about. Still, at the end of those two hours, felt like have gone back to that day when I was so prone to loneliness that I almost got depressed. Almost missed you for a moment. Almost cried for you. Almost. 🙂

Hokay…. So that was me betraying myself and trying to distract me from my original motive of this post. But in a way it strengthened me more by telling myself that I CAN gather myself before crumbling and do the damage control much more efficiently than ever before :p. I perhaps even cracked a joke or two. Not that I don’t feel, but I understand reality much more clearly than I feel. So I am able to “co-op” with it. And perhaps this would be one of most important lessons for me on  “HOW NOT TO FEEL BAD ABOUT GONE THINGS”

PS:- NOSTALGIA’s A BITCH! 😛

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6 baje duty pe jana hai aur janaab abhi 4:30 mein finding neverland dekh rahe hain…dekho dekho…subah mein neend aaye to halla mat machaana!! 😐

PS:- I hope its worth it! :p

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I think I would not be able to recollect how many time I have taken up the HERCULEAN TASK of writing this post in last 1 month or so, but what I can tell without an iota of doubt is that I always found myself at loss for the words to begin with. Might have an inspiration to start this off with the issue itself ;).  I have learnt that if we keep ourselves from doing things we always wanted to do, just because of some problems in our way and wait for the storm to subside, then perhaps the whole picture will be changed when the fog finally settles down. Its better to commit a mistake than the act of doing nothing and be sitting ducks.

Big words. LOL. I thought the same till I found out that the gone year was one dedicated to hard, stern and hurting decisions; to some new beginnings and some odd endings. Odd enough but not unjust. It was perhaps the fitting way to bid adieu to 2010 by closing all the matters for once and all. I felt hurt, it did hurt, I won’t lie. But it felt the right thing to do. And perhaps I have finally found the courage to make decisions for myself, rather than be sitting ducks and wait for the RIGHT TIME to come.

1 year has gone by @ Vizag, the one they call The city of destiny .I sometimes wonder which way my destiny will take me, but I am not afraid of it anymore. I might not be getting my MBA degree anytime soon, but I will be getting one thing that is way more better than that; My own insight into things that I never even dreamt of, an brand new experience; and that’s the reason I am not anymore afraid of the roller coaster ride or the dull, muddy roads destiny might have in store for me. I am going to enjoy every punch they throw at me and will make sure to return the favour.

PS:- Living in your own fla does make you feel way better and grown up than being in a hostel, though it comes at its own cost, the humane companionship. But then, friends are never far away if you want them close 🙂

PPS:- Back to my cooking days again!!! And it rocks!! \m/

PPPS:- I turned 26 on 1st 🙂 Yayyyyy

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